Sunday, November 1, 2009

Me, God?

What do I know of Holy?
I am just me.
Carnal minded and distracted.
Selfish, intrigued, lustful and selfish.
I am just me.
What Could You, Oh Lord, Do Through Me?

Daniel sat in our living room last night during a time of fellowship with close friends and poured out his heart. You see, this husband of mine who has always followed God without question is suddenly fearful of where this God could take us. We are so comfortable in our cozy house and comfortable pay check.
We are human.

You see, this husband of mine is called to preach.
He heard it immediately after he was saved. He has known all along. God has quickened his heart for worship, he has an amazing testimony, he was strengthened in his ability to witness and he has a great knowledge of the Word. He struggles with internal battles, much like we all do.
He is human.

Daniel said of himself just last night,
"I can't even talk right. I can't even get my thoughts out correctly in words. How is God going to use me to preach?"--
Do you know that Moses said the very same thing. And to this day he is known to be one of the greatest chosen men of God to ever serve, obey and lead others to the throne. He was a mighty, chosen man of God.
And he was just human.
"Moses said to the LORD, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue." The LORD said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
Exodus 4:10-12

Do you know that the apostle Paul who wrote much of the New Testament, suffered for Christ and led many to salvation by his words spoke of himself in 1 Timothy as the greatest of all sinners? Even he had doubts and fears about being used of God in marvelous and powerful ways. But he was. He was used of God! And he did remarkable, wonderful things!
And he was just human.
"This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners; of whom I am chief .“
1 Tim. 1:15

Today I went to church with Nora and Daniel stayed home with Braden to rest. The message at church was almost exactly what we had just talked about last night while in conversation about God with friends. And the verses of scripture that were read today rang true in my heart! I received an audible confirmation from the God of Gods that He heard our hearts!
If you haven't turned up your speakers while visiting my blog I encourage you to do so today. The first song on my play list is a new favorite of mine. Sometimes we allow our human-ness to get in the way of God. Because our minds cannot understand Him in full capacity we sell Him short in so many unspeakable ways.

God is in control. By not believing that; by doubting that we cannot be used for a purpose he has called us for is insulting and disgusting to God. Often times we do not believe that He can use us for certain things because we don't feel worthy enough or talented enough or loved enough. God chose you! God didn't care about Moses' speech problem or the fact the he stuttered. God overlooks the physical because He manifests in the spiritual. God didn't ever care about Paul's insecurities. He didn't care that King David had many wives or the fact that Noah was, at one point, a drunk and foolish man. He knew Judas was ultimately going to betray Jesus in the worst possible way and yet He still chose Him for great things.
He overlooked their pasts, their flaws, their shortcomings, their imperfections and insecurities.
And He does the same for you.
He sees you in His light.
Not your own.
And today, my prayer for you -just as I prayed over my sleeping husband last night, is that you would begin to feel about yourself the way that the Father feels about you. That you would begin to see yourself worthy and capable of whatever He has chosen for you and called you to be!
Great things are in store if you begin to believe for you what God knows to be true.

What do I know of Holy?
Nearly Nothing if I believe I am not good enough.

What do you believe about yourself?
How can you begin to feel differently?
How do you think God sees you & how do you want Him to see you?
What are you afraid of?
What do you know of Holy?

I love you all and hope that you are encouraged tonight!
As always, feel free to email me with any questions, comments or prayer requests! I love hearing from you and have especially enjoyed connecting with some friends from my past this week!
Pictures from Halloween will be up tomorrow so see ya then;)


Tiffany said...

I love this! What truth in your words!! Thanks. I needed to read this.

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brandy said...

I needed to hear this today! Thank you! :-)