hope.

Everyone in the world should have a Mabel.

That was part of my status this morning on facebook. Because truly, if everyone could wake up and see her, smell her, breathe her in...we'd all be a little more happy, I believe.

She is magnificent.

She had therapy yesterday (as we now do every Tuesday and Thursday) and for the first time in 6 weeks, I felt SO encouraged!!!
She sat for 10 minutes (assisted, of course) without getting fussy and she looked so strong! She lifted her head from the normal down position to hold a stare with me for a few seconds.
It made my heart beat.
She even [intentionally] reached for a toy!
You have no idea what a huge step that is for her!!!

She is 7 months old.

We have been praying diligently for the Lord to do something mighty through this baby.

And He is!

Because He always does.

I am tired of feeling defeated, sad, and frustrated in the midst of this. Of course there will be days when that is inevitable. My reality is much different than I had ever thought it would be.

Which in itself is the lie, isn't it?

That we create something in our mind that we never really know is going to work out the way we think it will...

We set ourselves up for heartache sometimes, even if it is unintentional.

For today, in this moment, I am choosing to dwell in yesterday.

Where my baby made progress by leaps and bounds.

Where I felt the hope that I have been praying to find.

Where I actually believed that God was going to do mighty things.

And I know that there will be days when I don't feel those things.

But thankfully my feelings don't change God

Or His plan.

In fact, He doesn't need my feelings at all.

The enemy dwells there; in the emotions of a person's soul.

So I am trusting the Word.

The only solid thing that I can depend on with my entire being.

And I am trusting the Word to do a mighty revival in my spirit.

And in my baby.

Because all things are possible for he who believes.

And baby....

I do.

"And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you."

Psalm 9:10