changes.

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind.  Our life has changed drastically.  

I'm finding myself at a place of clarity today, a place where I'm able to write without distractions or tears.  

When I started this blog I set out to be authentic to my story and the truth that God was writing in my life, no matter what that meant.  I want to remain genuine here because I know now that so many of you are reading faithfully, praying for Mabel and the journey that has transpired through the years.  The story that I believe God intended to be beautiful has taken a very ugly turn in the past several weeks.   

I find myself here time and time again, not only for you but even more so for my children and for myself.  With that being said, I'm sure many of you have pieced together the fact that Daniel has left me.  

I'm going to ask respectfully this one time:

Please do not pretend to know who I am, who he is or what has gone on.  I would ask that you respect our family during a time that is not only very difficult but incredibly sorrowful and heavy.

This was once a marriage that I believed spoke for itself in strength, integrity and dignity.  

Daniel has since severed those ties by his own choosing and we are now living two separate stories.  What you may see or hear of him, please know that those are his choices and his story.

Please bare in mind that mine is very different than his and that is how I prefer it at this point.  

 I still want my legacy to be one that is clothed in the things of the Lord.  His decisions are altogether different than the ones I have and will continue to make.

In a marriage choices are viewed as a unit.  At this point we are no longer functioning as that unit and therefore I want my choices to be viewed as mine and his choices to be viewed as his.  

This is extremely hard for me to type and even more difficult to believe. 

My life has been flipped upside down and it has been gut wrenching to say the least.  If I'm being completely honest, I'm hurt, embarrassed, ashamed and humiliated.

But for now, for today-I am ok.  The kids are doing fine and I have learned in these few short weeks that nothing else needs to be my focus or priority in a situation like ours when time is so very precious.  Nora, Braden and Mabel deserve to be represented with nothing but grace and dignity in every situation, especially this one and I plan to make sure that they are taken care of in those ways.

I just ask as my friends and readers that you would please respect the kids and I in our privacy.
Thank you in advance for your faithfulness in my life.